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Tuesday, December 09, 2008

FUCK.

i am so fucking angry. i have not felt such anger in a very long time such that now my insides are hurting.

i was uploading samba gig video that will jolly well take 3 bloody hours to be uploaded onto facebook.

was surfing net and talking to friends online, eldest sis came along and asked (exactly, word for word) : "can i use the comp for 5 minutes?"

and off i went to clean up my table and the living room cos my stuff was all over the place and my second sis was nagging non stop which already fucking pissed me off but i kept quiet.

when finally i was done after about 15 minutes, i saw my sister leaving the room and so i went in to use the comp.

to my horror as you guys xan guess it, she OFF-ED the fucking comp.

tell me, whose fault is this? huh??!

boiling with anger, i went into the sleeping room where she just got into bed and i shouted: "did you off the comp?? do you know i'm uploading a video?????" she replied that she switched off the comp, and my mind and my voice box went :"FUCKKK! do you know how long it'll take for me to upload those videos???"

bloody innocent piece of shit right. yes i am wrong to have used fuck on her but you know what? who cares at that point of time? huh??

so she screamed back and said she didnt know, not her fault blah n blah, and i was spilling over with madness. wtf?? "you told me u needed 5 mins on the comp. how would i expect u to off the comp??"

people, please tell me i make sense.

then i stormed off cos she's gonna defend herself with stupid reasons like she dunno and i shouldnt have used vulgarities, blahx3.

i went to the kitchen, washes my water bottle, and i went back to talk to her.

CALMLY.

mum was in the room already, trying to get the fucking facts right.

so i went in, and said calmly, :"please have the courtesy to at least..."

got rudely interrupted by her crazy shouts and denials-

and i continued to say this fucking sentence:"please at least have the courtesy to ask me before you switch off your comp" amidst "this is not my fault, this is my comp stop telling me what to do..etc etc etc"-screams from my sister. and i wasnt even successful in completing that bloody sentence.

i was so angry cos mum was there to keep interrpting and saying her piece of mind, so i stormed off to the study room instead.

WTF. let me say it again, WHAT THE FUCK.

mum blames me ok, for being loud. so nicely and calmly i said, "are you sure i was being loud? who was louder than me? even you're louder than me also ok."

she wanted us to hear her piece of mind and stuff like that but im so freaking angry cos she was being damn loud when its not even her business. besides i think im handling it well by talking calmly and nicely to my sister the second time. and then they have to spoil my plan huh. so i rudely 'shhh-ed' her and she screamed out her piece of mind before she stormed out. what the fuck? now my fault huh.

and my sister is like smsing me? bloody idiot need to use technology as a barrier to talk.

she: its a bloody innocent mistake on my end and i dunno why i had to scold vulgarities at me! and scold and scold and scold. u think i am so lame to do it on purpose?

me: it is not my fault either and i am very pissed off. and now it became my mistake and mum is blaming me now. i wasnt being loud, you are the one. please think through it. all i wanted to say is that you should have the courtesy to ask me whether i still need the comp annot. just because u are angry from the double charged by the taxi doesnt mean you should get angry at me too.

she: who the hell says i am angry from being double charged? i am angry with the words u used. pld oso go thru ur choice of language. dun use the word fuck AT people like tt. it is extremely crude amd distasteful. i cant be bothered to think on my end when u had to use that language.

(truth is i learn the word 'fuck' from my sister. believe it or not.)

me: as if u dun use the word fuck. pot calling kettle black. whatever. you're just making a round to shoot yourself in the back. and i'm extremely pissed off. btw i didnt scold n scold n scold. you're the one being damn loud.

she: i dun use the word fuck at you at all. and because of that, i cant be bothered if u are pissed or not.

i cannot be bothered with a blonde like that. i'm using her MACBOOK PRO to blog this right now. if she makes me reach my limit...........

i'm not so pissed now. finally rant it all out.

-when are you coming back? ;